Things are going good!

Everything has been going very well with our birthmother. I have talked to her about every week and a half. It is starting to get easier for us to talk about things (phew). I hate the akward silence. She is still going to the doctor and everything is checking out well.

We are actually going to visit the birthmother the weekend of October 27th. This will give us an opporunity to hopefully make things a little more comfortable and just continue to get to know each other. Each time I talk to her she reminds me of how ready she is to have this baby and give her to us :) She is a constant reminder to her of how she had been violated and treated with no respect. I also remind her that at the same time she is a blessing to us because she is carrying our FIRST child. She is taking care of her and protecting her while I can not. She will never know what  blessing she is and how much love I have for her.

Recently during one of my prayer times I was telling God how I know that even though I would have gladly taken the baby from California I know that His timing is perfect, even when it doesn't seem like it is. I would have had such disdain for the other birthmother had she actually placed her baby with us that there was probably NO way I could have humanly loved her because of such the hard time she had (and probably would have) given us.

How perfect is MY God that He knew that and He wanted me to have a love for the birthmother of my child. That even when I wanted the other baby so desperately He knew that that was NOT His best for me. Why would I have ever wanted that? I am so thankful for a God that can meet our needs, calm my heart, and love on me the way no one else can do. I can't wait to see what my God has in store for Sadie Grace!!