What happened?

I have been able to talk to some people about what happened but I have been mostly quiet on social media. Now that it’s been a month I wanted to share exactly what happened with our “disrupted” adoption.
Throughout the match with this Birthmom, she only “talked” to me through text. This bothered me but I was assured that in the last year and a half, younger birthmoms would prefer to text over talking over the phone. During the match the Birthmother stayed in contact with me but didn’t with the adoption coordinator or attoenys. Again they were not overly worried because she would continue to text me. About 2 weeks before he was born she did not answer any of my texts. I began to worry and thought she was going to change her mind. After a week and a half she responded and said she was sorry she just had to get away because she wasn’t used to the noisey house she was living in with her mom, dad, and brother. We moved on and she still seemed committed although I wonder if this is where her doubt began to set in.

May 7-9:51- I hear my cell phone alert me that I had a text message. I was in the middle of teaching so I waiting until I was done and went and checked it about 10 minutes later. The text said, “I’m having the baby today.”  My first words were “Oh my gosh!!!” I asked the birthmom, “what’s the plan? Have you talked to the attorney?” She said, “I’m giving him to you.”  I said, “ no are you in labor or having a c-section?” She said she was about to have a c-section. I was so excited I couldn’t think straight!! I told the ladies in my room and got my friend from down the hall. I called the attorney’s office and we determined that I needed to get there as soon as possible. I left school and frantically went home to pack for everyone. I called Chris and told him to come home so he and Sadie could start the drive to Texas.

We had many sweet friends offer us airplane miles when we thought we were going to Colorado, so I called one of them and asked if they could get me a last minute ticket to Texas. She and her husband worked on that while I went to pack. Thankfully, my friend Sarah, went home with me and helped me get everyone packed. I was so excited I couldn’t think straight!! My mom went and got Sadie out of school and we went to Chick Fil A for our last lunch together as an only child.

I was supposed to be on a flight from GSP to Texas at 2. The friends that were working on my ticket called, as we were getting ready to leave to go to the airport, and said they couldn’t get me on that flight so now I needed to be at the airport by 3. Sarah dropped me off at the airport and I nervously made my way to the desk. Thankfully when I arrived, one of my former students mom was working the airline desk. She said that all the flights had been delayed to Charlotte and they couldn't get me there until in the morning. I told her what was going on and she said if I can leave and get to Charlotte by 4 then I could get to Texas that night, so that’s what we did. I called Sarah back and asked if she could come back and drive me to Charlotte, she of course said yes. A few minutes later she called and said she had a flat tire but her husband was going to come get us and drive us there. Well it turned out that it wasn’t a flat tire, an industrial strap had flown underneath her car and punctured some important parts, rendering her car undrivable. It was 3:00 by then and I really needed to leave in 10 minutes. My sister in law teaches in district 5 so she was the closest person to me. I called her explained what was going on and she drove to GSP to get me and took me to Charlotte.

I had not flown in 17 years so I was very apprehensive. Was I going to know where to go? Were people going to be there to help me get to the right place? What if I don’t get there in time? I was thinking about all of that and my sweet baby who was waiting on me to get to the hospital. I made it through the Charlotte airport and got on the plane. I had taken a book to read but just couldn’t get into it so I pulled out the Bible app and of all things decided to read Exodus.

I know most people wouldn’t start reading in Exodus but the story of Moses really interests me. Maybe it’s because we’ve watched the movie, “Prince of Egypt” a few hundred times at home. Maybe it’s because he was adopted. Maybe it’s because he just seems so real. God wanted to use him in a mighty way but he felt so inadequate. He pleaded with God to use someone else. He said he wasn’t a good speaker, he wasn’t qualified to do what God wanted him to do, people wouldn’t listen to him, and he didn’t have all the answers. How many times are we like Moses? One of the things we are teaching Sadie not to say is, “ But I...” or “But mom...” or “But...” When we ask her to do something we want her to say “yes ma’am” or “yes sir” with no questions asked. We refer to it as immediate obedience in our house. Chris and I are never going ask her to do something that is unsafe or unhealthy for her and we expect her obey no questions asked. How many times are like Moses or Sadie? But God... I can’t. But God...that’s too hard. But God... someone else can do it better. But God...  Little did I know in less than 24 hours I was going to have to decide if I was going to trust God and His perfect provision or was I going to say But God...