Humbled

God has humbled us in many ways through this journey. I think the first way is that He chose us!!! Why would He choose us? I was the one who was mad at God for at least 9 months after our last failed in vitro cycle. Why would He use me? The only answer I have is that I was willing to be used (we were willing). I have heard the saying "God will get His" meaning that even if the person that God chose to use is not willing to be used He will find another way to reach people. That person just misses out on the blessing. I am so thankful that we have been apart of this blessing. Not just the blessing of becoming a parent but the blessing of seeing God work in the lives of other people. I know that there have been people who have thought there is NO WAY that you can raise $20,700 by the time the baby comes and as we are closing in on our amount they have realized that GOD has provided the money and that He is involved in the little things in our lives and that He cares so much about His children. As I type this we have raised to date $17,350. That has been through donations, yard sales, and Pizza Inn fundraisers. There is not a doubt in my mind that God has brought this baby to us because He has provided a way for us to bring him home. My wonderful attorney has even given us an extension of 2 months to get the rest of our money in so that we will not have to borrow any from the bank. God is so good. There was a point that I wondered if I would ever be a mommy, something I have dreamed of for a very long time. God saw and heard the desires of my heart but He said in MY timing I will give you this great gift you have been wanting. I think He wanted me understand that this baby is a child He has entrusted to me and Chris but the child is really His. He needed Chris and I to grow in our faith so that we would instill an unwavering faith in this little boy so that when he grows up he will have a passion for God. Which is something I prayed for 4 years ago. I wanted our children to know beyond a shadow of a doubt who their parents served, I didn't want an auto-pilot faith, I wanted an on-fire faith. God knew that and He had to allow me to endure the last 4 years to get me there. While I would have never asked for these trials I would not trade them because I know I wouldn't be here now. Please join me in praying for Elijah over these next 10 days. Please pray that the time would go quickly for us and that we would soon be able to hold our precious sweet blessing.